Euphoria (American TV series)/Specials

Season 1 Specials 2 Main Euphoria (2019–present) is an American teen drama television series on HBO, created by Sam Levinson starring Zendaya. thumb|Every time I feel good, I think it'll last forever, but it doesn't. Trouble Don't Last Always Ali: You’re a piece of shit, alright, but here’s the silver lining: You’re not a drug addict because you’re a piece of shit. You’re a piece of shit because you’re a drug addict. Rue: [scoffs] Ali, I don't believe in God. Ali: Guess what? God doesn't give a fuck if you believe in Him. He believes in you. Rue: I don't know. That–That sounds good, but it doesn't really mean anything. Ali: Of course it means something. If God didn't believe in you, you wouldn't even still be breathing. Rue: So, you're saying the reason my dad died is because God didn't believe in him? Ali: Rue, that's not what I was saying– Rue: There’s nothing that makes me angrier than that fucking argument. Ali: Hey, that's not what I was saying– Rue: You know, ‘cause every time someone survives, like, a mass shooting or some terrible fucking earthquake, they always say, you know, “I survived for a reason. God saved me for a reason. I have a purpose.” [scoffs] And then I think to myself, like, okay, well, what you’re saying is that your life is more important than that six-year-old who died that day, or the newborn who died that day, or anybody fucking else who died that day. Your life has a purpose, right? Well, why does your life have a purpose and my dad’s doesn’t? Because I could argue that my dad’s purpose was to raise me and my sister. To be there for my mom. That was his purpose, I think. But, you know. He’s dead. Ali: Listen– Rue: Ali, if you're about to tell me that he died for a reason, or, you know, whatever, I will literally walk the fuck out. Ali: I–I wasn't. Rue: He didn't die to teach us a lesson. Okay? He didn't die to, you know, have us all come together, or whatever the fuck people tell people when they don't have anything to say. He died because he died. That's it. Same stupid reason I came out of the womb with a couple wires crossed, right? Just fucking luck. Ali: I said it before. I'll say it again: You're playing pool with Minnesota Fats. Maybe if I was some random-ass classmate of yours with no life experience, and I heard that you picked up a piece of glass and threatened your mom, I'd be like, "Ooh, that's unforgivable." But the more you believe that, the sicker it makes you. Because every time you do something unforgivable, you think: “Why change? I’m just a piece of shit. I better keep going. What’s the difference now?” Ali: Your punishment, the sentence you’ve given yourself, is that you, Rue Bennett, are beyond forgiveness. And that punishment is way too harsh and it’s also way too easy. It allows you to keep doing exactly what you’re doing without changing, because you deserve it. There’s no hope. You’re beyond forgiveness. So you may as well just fuck the fuck off forever and go down the gutter because that’s what this girl, this piece of shit, deserves. This is why the world keeps getting worse. People keep doing shit that we deem unforgivable, and then in return they decide that there’s no reason to change. So now you got a whole bunch of people running around who don't give a fuck about redemption. That's scary. Rue: Ali, what have you done that's so terrible? Ali: A lot. Rue: But what? For real. Ali: A lot. Rue: You're not just saying that? Ali: Nah. Rue: You promise? Ali: Why do you wanna know? Rue: Because I think you're, like, a good person. And I just couldn't imagine you, like, doing something terrible. Ali: I grew up in a house where my dad used to beat on my mama. He was a drunken, cold son of a bitch. And every night, I lay in bed dreaming of every which way to kill him. [clicks tongue] But eventually, my mama up and left him and took me and my sister with her, and life goes on. But I always said to myself that no matter how bad shit got, whether I was shooting dope or smoking crack, I would never, ever be like my dad. And then I–I got married. I had two girls. It was chaos. I was using, and my wife wasn’t having it. We were fighting every night, and it got physical. And, uh, one night I looked over and I see my two little girls watching. And I thought, "Here I am, a grown man with two girls, and they just watched me hit their mom in the face." I spent 30 years of my life… thinking of how to kill my dad for doing the same shit I just did to their mom. That’s rock bottom. It doesn’t get any worse than that. But hey, it took me another five years to clean up, because for some people, there is no rock bottom. It’s bottomless. And the truth is, drugs will fundamentally change who you are as a human being. Every moral. Every principle. Everything you hold close to your heart–and believe in–will go out the window or down the drain. ‘Cause there’s no force stronger on planet Earth than that next fix. [pause] Now, you may be functioning. Maybe things go well. Maybe they last, and maybe they don’t. But the one thing I know is true is that the longer you do drugs, the more you’re gonna lose. And not just in terms of the things you love, but the things you value about yourself. And every compromise you make, every moral line that you cross, you’ll go further and further, until you don’t recognize who the fuck you are. And that list of racing thoughts–that list of unforgivable things–it grows longer. And gets uglier. [beat] You still think I’m a good person? Rue: Yeah. Ali: The thought of maybe being a good person is what keeps me trying to be a good person. Although, some people might disagree with you. Fuck Anyone Who's Not a Sea Blob Jules: I feel like my entire life, I’ve been trying to conquer femininity, and somewhere along the way, I feel like femininity conquered me. Jules: At least for me, being trans is spiritual. You know, it’s not religious. It’s not, like, for some congregation. It’s for me. It’s mine. It belongs to me. And I don’t ever want to stand still. Like, I want to be alive. I mean, that’s what this has always been about, is, like… staying alive. Dr. Nichols: I know this is our first session, and I know you didn't want to come, but I'm glad you did. I hope you are, too. Okay, so, just be patient with yourself. And have a wonderful New Year. Jules: Merry Christmas. Dr. Nichols: I'm Jewish. Jules: Oh, God. I'm sorry. Dr. Nichols: Don't be. It's a way better holiday. [Jules hears a knock on the door while lying in bed] Rue: Jules? Jules: ...Rue? [looks up and sees Rue standing near the door] Hi. [Rue walks towards the middle of Jules' bedroom] Rue: [pause] I, um... Uh, I was just... riding my bike, um, to go meet Ali, and I passed your house. And I... I don't know. It–It's Christmastime, so... I just... Your–Your dad let me in. Jules: [tearfully] Uh, yeah. He's really mad at me. I'm grounded... and in therapy. So, um... I really missed you. Rue: I missed you, too. Jules: And I'm really sorry about, like, everything that happened at the train station, and leaving and stuff. Um... [breaks down in tears] It was really fucking stupid. Rue: [pause; quietly sobs] Ah, fuck. I don't know why I'm crying. I just get really emotional during the holidays, that's all. Jules: It's okay. Rue: Um... Yeah, Merry Christmas, Jules. [Rue walks out of the bedroom, leaving Jules heartbroken] Category:Euphoria (American TV series) seasons