Paul Kalanithi

Paul Kalanithi (April 1, 1977 – March 9, 2015) was an Indian-American neurosurgeon and writer, known for his memoir When Breath Becomes Air (2016) about his life and fatal illness. Quotes What patients seek is not scientific knowledge doctors hide, but existential authenticity each must find on her own. Getting too deep into statistics is like trying to quench a thirst with salty water. The angst of facing mortality has no remedy in probability.I remember the moment when my overwhelming uneasiness yielded. Seven words from Samuel Beckett, a writer I’ve not even read that well, learned long ago as an undergraduate, began to repeat in my head, and the seemingly impassable sea of uncertainty parted: “I can’t go on. I’ll go on.” I took a step forward, repeating the phrase over and over: “I can’t go on. I’ll go on.” And then, at some point, I was through.I am now almost exactly eight months from my Medical diagnosis diagnosis. My strength has recovered substantially. In treatment, the cancer is retreating. I have gradually returned to work. I’m knocking the dust off scientific manuscripts. I’m writing more, seeing more, feeling more. Every morning at 5:30, as the alarm clock goes off, and my dead body awakes, my wife asleep next to me, I think again to myself: “I can’t go on.” And a minute later, I am in my Scrubs (clothing) scrubs, heading to the operating room, alive: “I’ll go on.” How Long Have I Got Left? January 25, 2014 Opinion, The New York Times https://www.nytimes.com/2014/01/25/opinion/sunday/how-long-have-i-got-left.html Most ambitions are either achieved or abandoned; either way, they belong to the past. The future, instead of the ladder toward the goals of life, flattens out into a perpetual present. Money, status, all the vanities the preacher of Ecclesiastes described, hold so little interest: a chasing after wind, indeed. Before I go: Time warps for a young surgeon with metastatic lung cancer Stanford Medicine Spring 2015 https://stanmed.stanford.edu/2015spring/before-i-go.html I sat down by the computer to enter orders as the nurses cleaned and the anesthesiologists began to wake the patient. I had always jokingly threatened that when I was in charge, instead of the high-energy pop music everyone liked to play in the OPerating theater O.R., we’d listen exclusively to bossa nova. I put “Getz/Gilberto” on the radio, and the soft, sonorous sounds of a saxophone filled the room.I left the O.R. shortly after, then gathered my things, which had accumulated over seven years of work—extra sets of clothes for the nights you don’t leave, toothbrushes, bars of soap, phone chargers, snacks, my skull model and collection of neurosurgery books, and so on.On second thought, I left my books behind. They’d be of more use here. https://www.newyorker.com/books/page-turner/my-last-day-as-a-surgeon The New Yorker My Last Day as a Surgeon January 11, 2016 External links Category:Physicians from New York (state) Category:1977 births Category:2015 deaths Category:Stanford University alumni Category:Yale University alumni Category:University of Cambridge alumni Category:Indian Americans Category:Surgeons